I really hate where yesterday has gone and today is going. I haven't slept in almost 24 hours. I'm finding it very hard right now. There is this girl, that i love so much... and she broke up with me... and well it sucks. I'm finding out all these things that really suck. I really just want to go die. Like seriously... what the fuck? i dunno. I don't want to sleep on it. If i go to sleep she'll only be in my dreams... and we'll be together... and i'll be so happy. Then i'll wake up and reality will hit me like a ton of bricks and i'll realize. "oh shit we aren't together anymore." then i'll feel really sad. and ya know its times like these that i wish i could sleep.... and never wake up.... Dreams can be so perfect... and I wish my life were a dream right now... it would be so much easier to cope with when i woke up. It would all just be a bad dream... so i dunno I'm tired... but afraid to sleep.